From the sky on her
fingers wrapped like cellophane
trapping ocean
inside her fingers all
salty from pretzels on the board
walk;
it’s here ghosts trapped by
this sea
side town remind her
not to get stuck
too, become an AI
bot.
If she dyed her hair
a different color, would she be a different
person?
Would someone love her and hold
her like a rose carved
from glass?
Or was there always something about her,
a cave in shadows,
its smells of sandalwood
and seaweed,
stuck in time. All that glitters isn’t
gold, the ghosts write
in sand.
Once daddy took her for ice cream
she ate in the back
of his silver
Buick, the one with the blue
velvet seats that smelled of cigars
even though daddy never smoked.
It was then a faint memory that wasn’t
her memory of a woman who grew up
to be a ghost
found her. The ghost lived
in a circular room
a run down
Victorian house, she dressed only in
a bathrobe, her smile a pair of rotted fish.
This is why
she never wanted to grow up.
She just wanted to trap all the glitter
in the world even if it wasn’t real,
just illusionary sparkle,
algorithmic happiness —
stop the future from
being the past.